Sometimes I feel I need to feel sorry for a lot of things, things that are not even in my control and I have no hope of trying to understand and interpret.
Firstly sorry for not being so up to date with the blog recently, just felt I didn't have much to say or just similar things and again didn't want to bore plus my evenings have been a bit hectic due to little man. I'm trying to get him into his own room or rather use to his own bed, and its proving a little hard. just because in the middle of the night i'm getting up several times and I can't and won't let him just cry as he will then disturb my daughter and then that is just going to cause problems.
I feel sorry I'm not the mother I think I should be, I get stressed far to easily ( which everyone can vouch for) but also have a lot to deal with. Not saying anyone else doesn't but feel really stretched sometimes. And we seem to have had alot of things with school, I worry that I am going to be soon as one of "those" parents pestering over little things but to me, they are not little these are things and after all they do come into Duty of care! which has been failed recently. So looking forward to this school meeting coming up. But with some talking with hubby we are going to do more family days out and events. I want them to look back and remember a happy childhood.
Partially I think I should say sorry for not being the friend I could be, I do my best, I do have a young family with extra care needs to deal with. I don't like to go drinking and clubbing was never really my thing. I feel I have lost touched with a lot of people and It upsets me a little. Would it be so hard to come for a coffee at the weekend? I know people have work, my children don't bite ( yet) but sometimes I feel i have moved a different circle when I haven't, I'm still Chelle. Also I have tried to do the contacting but it shouldn't all be one sided especially when there are reunions involved.
And enough for the pity party for today! stay tuned for the better one tomorrow!
Thursday, 12 September 2013
Tuesday, 3 September 2013
All so quiet!
Daughter showing off her lunch box with Iggy from Moshi Monsters
What a difference! daughter was off to school today and the volume level in the house was so much different! heh i didn't have children fighting over toys, no voice raised at children. No annoying kids tv well not all day anyway! It was nice to be able to get some time with the little man who was happy to potter around, play with the hoover and generally just be himself without fighting with his sister!
I was even lucky enough for him to fall asleep in his pram when we got home whilst i was doing the hoovering of all things! Can't complain at all really.
She seems to have enjoyed her first day at school and got a award for working so hard with her numbers ( I think they must have been trying to make first day back fun! she doesn't find it hard to count to 20 after all) though she is a bit disappointed that they have told her she is on the same level of books she was on before she broke up for summer even though they told me she was moving up two bands.. hrrm! not sure whats gone on there! I think they might just be easing them back in. But shall soon see what is going on though.
They have done well with her seat cushion and she has a set chair in class for her cushion that moves if she does depending on the table. The teachers had to be shown by another how to do her cream but least that has been done! as i do wonder sometimes how much they do it. Though bless one of her knees was rather a mess when she came home! and she promises me she was not sat on the floor with out it! .. we shall see there too.
Little boy's creation at lunch time, tuna sweetcorn melt with animal biscuits, Picture of him pondering
what to do and the last one Sid his new favourite toy from holiday coming up for a picture :)
Didn't do much with the little man today as my head had other ideas with a awful headache! but thankfully that has gone now! tomorrow we have a dermatology appointment and seeing as the remainder of spots are still there we shall see what she says!!
Monday, 2 September 2013
Rally's and Ikea
Well that was a busy weekend! don't think we ever really stopped!
On Saturday we went and did our shop, which isn't out of the ordinary but this time we went to Aldi, because thanks to Extreme couponing UK on fb I was made aware of a £5 voucher if you spent £40 in a newspaper. So i persuaded the hubby to go and do our shopping in there hoping we could get everything we wanted, as in the past we haven't always got what we wanted and the veg has gone off quickly but we did a really good shop, especially when it includes fresh fruit and veg as well as fresh meat something we can't always get and have been buying things in from Iceland ( not that there is anything wrong, i rather like it! but yes its processed) . Also with the paper there were other coupons which we used and even though we presented them at the end of our transaction and not at the start (whoops!) the guy wasn't too fussed though thankfully!
Onto swimming, bit of a change of teacher as her uncle is on holiday and so she had one of the others. She does well in a class full of boys! still same old issue but getting better every time!
On to Ikea! where we bought a little Expedit to help tidy away all the toys and its now up and in the corner and the living room looks a hell of a lot better and we can access everything! Though we had a bit of a panic whilst there as we couldn't find it! Also they had some seat covers/pads so we have bought one for out and about and for school for our daughter so that she has something suitable to sit on so that her legs and knees don't get too irriated with her eczema. Still it didn't look pretty yesterday :(
If that wasn't enough we came home after going picking up some stones for our garden and started to try and tidy it up a little hahah er.. we need more stones then we thought but its going to look nice! and the kids were happy to get involved too after I had on friday complaining that my daughter couldn't use the weeding tools.. I bought some toy ones from Tesco :D
Sunday we went to Heaton Park Rally where basically there are alot of old buses and vintage cars. We've been going for the last what i worked out as 8 years ( sure I must have missed one or two in there!) Kids where happy as we took the football and when we didn't go and have a look around we were playing football and apart from me having a bad mummy moment and not having a go at a stall holder for swearing at my baby ( went and told higher people instead) it was a good day!
Tomorrow sees eldest back in school! she is looking forward to it and i am just for more routine. (And for less whining ) Least she does enjoy it! though not sure what she might make of year 1 seeing as there isn't as much play as reception. fun fun. And who can believe it is September already!! O_O
On Saturday we went and did our shop, which isn't out of the ordinary but this time we went to Aldi, because thanks to Extreme couponing UK on fb I was made aware of a £5 voucher if you spent £40 in a newspaper. So i persuaded the hubby to go and do our shopping in there hoping we could get everything we wanted, as in the past we haven't always got what we wanted and the veg has gone off quickly but we did a really good shop, especially when it includes fresh fruit and veg as well as fresh meat something we can't always get and have been buying things in from Iceland ( not that there is anything wrong, i rather like it! but yes its processed) . Also with the paper there were other coupons which we used and even though we presented them at the end of our transaction and not at the start (whoops!) the guy wasn't too fussed though thankfully!
Onto swimming, bit of a change of teacher as her uncle is on holiday and so she had one of the others. She does well in a class full of boys! still same old issue but getting better every time!
On to Ikea! where we bought a little Expedit to help tidy away all the toys and its now up and in the corner and the living room looks a hell of a lot better and we can access everything! Though we had a bit of a panic whilst there as we couldn't find it! Also they had some seat covers/pads so we have bought one for out and about and for school for our daughter so that she has something suitable to sit on so that her legs and knees don't get too irriated with her eczema. Still it didn't look pretty yesterday :(
If that wasn't enough we came home after going picking up some stones for our garden and started to try and tidy it up a little hahah er.. we need more stones then we thought but its going to look nice! and the kids were happy to get involved too after I had on friday complaining that my daughter couldn't use the weeding tools.. I bought some toy ones from Tesco :D
Sunday we went to Heaton Park Rally where basically there are alot of old buses and vintage cars. We've been going for the last what i worked out as 8 years ( sure I must have missed one or two in there!) Kids where happy as we took the football and when we didn't go and have a look around we were playing football and apart from me having a bad mummy moment and not having a go at a stall holder for swearing at my baby ( went and told higher people instead) it was a good day!
Tomorrow sees eldest back in school! she is looking forward to it and i am just for more routine. (And for less whining ) Least she does enjoy it! though not sure what she might make of year 1 seeing as there isn't as much play as reception. fun fun. And who can believe it is September already!! O_O
Friday, 30 August 2013
Slow news week
When I first started my blog I did want to do it every day! but I have found with the children, and summer holidays there isn't always something to post! Unless you want me to keep posting the same old thing which I doubt you would appreciate! so especially the last couple of weeks I've left it a few days so that I might have something to talk about!
Back to school next Tuesday, got all the things we need, as she hasn't grown that much since the term ended, shoes will last for now and i'm not buying new unless I really have to! Cardigans still fit, she just has new skirts and polo tops and need to check the pe kit but that's not so hard to buy. Plenty of pe pumps around so won't need to buy any of them for a while at least!
I'm looking forward to being able to get back into a routine of sorts, as we've just gone with the flow over the summer holidays, not that this is a bad thing, but i'd like some of my hearing back as well. She talks far to much and as with any child about rubbish! Eczema not so bad at the moment though there are new patches, thankfully the spots are mostly gone except the ones shes scratched! Got all her medicine for school and will have to remember to take the box next week! Which I can guarantee I shall forget it on Tuesday heh.
Not overly much planned for the weekend, usual swimming and shopping on Saturday and possible planning what to do with the garden as it really needs looking at! Sunday we are going to a event, hubby is going to be driving a bus from work and i get to watch the kids all day oh the fun! :( but to be honest least I should get to see some friends that I haven't seen for a while! Hope the weather holds up as for out of the last 6 years about 2 have been okay, that being last year and the year before the rest have been naff!!
I'm going to crack on with the washing and putting stuff away, I don't know about anyone else but there are only 4 of us here and I always seem to have the washing machine on! I know with my daughter there is alot of washing due to bloody clothes and with the toddler as he gets into such a mess but, I can never seem to get through it all! Have a good weekend whatever you are doing!
Back to school next Tuesday, got all the things we need, as she hasn't grown that much since the term ended, shoes will last for now and i'm not buying new unless I really have to! Cardigans still fit, she just has new skirts and polo tops and need to check the pe kit but that's not so hard to buy. Plenty of pe pumps around so won't need to buy any of them for a while at least!
I'm looking forward to being able to get back into a routine of sorts, as we've just gone with the flow over the summer holidays, not that this is a bad thing, but i'd like some of my hearing back as well. She talks far to much and as with any child about rubbish! Eczema not so bad at the moment though there are new patches, thankfully the spots are mostly gone except the ones shes scratched! Got all her medicine for school and will have to remember to take the box next week! Which I can guarantee I shall forget it on Tuesday heh.
Not overly much planned for the weekend, usual swimming and shopping on Saturday and possible planning what to do with the garden as it really needs looking at! Sunday we are going to a event, hubby is going to be driving a bus from work and i get to watch the kids all day oh the fun! :( but to be honest least I should get to see some friends that I haven't seen for a while! Hope the weather holds up as for out of the last 6 years about 2 have been okay, that being last year and the year before the rest have been naff!!
I'm going to crack on with the washing and putting stuff away, I don't know about anyone else but there are only 4 of us here and I always seem to have the washing machine on! I know with my daughter there is alot of washing due to bloody clothes and with the toddler as he gets into such a mess but, I can never seem to get through it all! Have a good weekend whatever you are doing!
Monday, 26 August 2013
Bank Holiday!
Well this is the last bank holiday before Christmas, yes the big C word again. Funny how we gear so much of the year for one day? as soon as the children go back to school the adverts for toys start coming on, the shops are advertising for staff and its all one big count down to spend everything and be pigs basically?! no? Being with the family would just suit me, I don't want anything, don't need anything. Love and happiness and health :) Though have been buying for the children already I hope to have it done well before I have to!
We do however have other things that are needed first, there is my daughters 6th birthday in October! my husband has his 30th ( sssssh he doesn't want to celebrate it!!) in November and there are a few other birthdays in there too! ( not forgotten).Daughter wants to go to the cinema for her birthday so.. we are doing the cheap saturday morning viewing. ( don't care what you think i'm thinking of my purse here lol) and maybe something else i'm not sure yet! And she's not sure what she wants, said we can go to the bear factory and she can have anything in there which i think equates to a teddy from My Little Pony but we'll see! It could change, also she wants M and M's lol!! so yeah!
Bit of a slow weekend, took daughter swimming and she is getting better with the not stopping when she takes a breath but deffinatly needs work! and her spots are going down now. Just wish we had some ideas with what it could be! Speaking of tests etc she has had some tests results come back as fine even her vit d levels are fine now. ( must be all the sunshine!) but still leads me to wonder then what is wrong. And i know that sounds wrong of me but as a parent I just want to know, why can we not find any answers and does anyone actually care?! Not sure there and next week going back to school will be a test for her eczema to see how it goes. NOT looking forward to that part. Though I am looking forward to getting back into some routine. Summer hols haven't dragged as much as i thought they would and defo not as much as they did last year!! Just need to check her pe kit fits and order her medicine to go int he school box
I should mention people have got on my nerves this weekend but if it wasn't for people changing plans etc i wouldn't have sorted out the crap at the end of our bed so maybe thank you? :-p though don't like being let down and i don't like daughter being let down but hey ho.
Hopefully can sort out why little man has been so grumpy lately and try and sort out these naps! he is currently down for one after being awake at 6. And scream a thon! he isn't 2 yet and we have the tantrums already! Goes to show we really have two completely different children.. except now they tantrum together ;)
We do however have other things that are needed first, there is my daughters 6th birthday in October! my husband has his 30th ( sssssh he doesn't want to celebrate it!!) in November and there are a few other birthdays in there too! ( not forgotten).Daughter wants to go to the cinema for her birthday so.. we are doing the cheap saturday morning viewing. ( don't care what you think i'm thinking of my purse here lol) and maybe something else i'm not sure yet! And she's not sure what she wants, said we can go to the bear factory and she can have anything in there which i think equates to a teddy from My Little Pony but we'll see! It could change, also she wants M and M's lol!! so yeah!
Bit of a slow weekend, took daughter swimming and she is getting better with the not stopping when she takes a breath but deffinatly needs work! and her spots are going down now. Just wish we had some ideas with what it could be! Speaking of tests etc she has had some tests results come back as fine even her vit d levels are fine now. ( must be all the sunshine!) but still leads me to wonder then what is wrong. And i know that sounds wrong of me but as a parent I just want to know, why can we not find any answers and does anyone actually care?! Not sure there and next week going back to school will be a test for her eczema to see how it goes. NOT looking forward to that part. Though I am looking forward to getting back into some routine. Summer hols haven't dragged as much as i thought they would and defo not as much as they did last year!! Just need to check her pe kit fits and order her medicine to go int he school box
I should mention people have got on my nerves this weekend but if it wasn't for people changing plans etc i wouldn't have sorted out the crap at the end of our bed so maybe thank you? :-p though don't like being let down and i don't like daughter being let down but hey ho.
Hopefully can sort out why little man has been so grumpy lately and try and sort out these naps! he is currently down for one after being awake at 6. And scream a thon! he isn't 2 yet and we have the tantrums already! Goes to show we really have two completely different children.. except now they tantrum together ;)
Thursday, 22 August 2013
Daddies home! and mummy moments
I'm not sure I will forget the delight and excitement on my sons face when he realised his dad was home, yes yes 4 days and all that but as stated we were not use to this. so before anyone else could see ( I was on the couch, daughter upstairs and he had view of the window) he exlaimed. "daddy!" "daddy" and got all excited! when we opened the door and got cuddles he ran over and gave him an "awe" and a kiss. It was so precious that I wish I had my camera open to capture it! So nice to see because sometimes its all mummy and they are both mummies children, that to see little man being so loving was just sooo cute !
Today started off with tantrums already! little man watches us, use the laptops and we have a older one which I let our daughter use, so he now thinks because he can open it he can use it all the time so was getting rather het up over me not letting him play on it. I wouldn't mind but he is just in the phase of "I'm going to bash" everything. So that was fun all before 8, also even though he had had his breakfast he was after stealing his sisters so had to go and make another bowl.. which he did eat to be fair! but piggy and I think I give in to him a little too much.
Daughters spots have gone down, which i think are in thanks to the vivid pink anti biotics or just because its been practically a week since she first got them! her eczema at the moment looks good, but as I have previously said due to her being so use to scratching she has been scratching these and geeze they don't have bleed if you catch the tops! I feel so sorry for her as it was rather icky! :( I would love to think that once this passes we might have a break. But last night she was up with a sore knee and ankle. No she wasn't putting it on but had to divert her mind away from it. Wish we just had to deal with one thing or nothing at all! Though I know we cope as well as we can. And not complaining today as we've had it okay recently in light of things! though school will be a good tell tale of how we are doing!
Will sign off as mowing the front garden has taken it out of me in the sunshine! going to go and see if i can sleep. ! :)
Today started off with tantrums already! little man watches us, use the laptops and we have a older one which I let our daughter use, so he now thinks because he can open it he can use it all the time so was getting rather het up over me not letting him play on it. I wouldn't mind but he is just in the phase of "I'm going to bash" everything. So that was fun all before 8, also even though he had had his breakfast he was after stealing his sisters so had to go and make another bowl.. which he did eat to be fair! but piggy and I think I give in to him a little too much.
Daughters spots have gone down, which i think are in thanks to the vivid pink anti biotics or just because its been practically a week since she first got them! her eczema at the moment looks good, but as I have previously said due to her being so use to scratching she has been scratching these and geeze they don't have bleed if you catch the tops! I feel so sorry for her as it was rather icky! :( I would love to think that once this passes we might have a break. But last night she was up with a sore knee and ankle. No she wasn't putting it on but had to divert her mind away from it. Wish we just had to deal with one thing or nothing at all! Though I know we cope as well as we can. And not complaining today as we've had it okay recently in light of things! though school will be a good tell tale of how we are doing!
Will sign off as mowing the front garden has taken it out of me in the sunshine! going to go and see if i can sleep. ! :)
Wednesday, 21 August 2013
Medical diagnosis number two!
Sorry I've been quiet for the last couple of days, I didn't want it to just turn into me complaining too much with handling the kiddies on my own. I know plenty women and men do this on a daily basis for alot longer ( as i know a few of my friends who do ) Obviously I am not use to it but have made it to Wednesday without pulling my hair out and barely any trantrums. Yesterday was a little trying but oh well there was bound to be atleast one day!! I blame the blue full moon!!
But anyway hubby is back today whooohooo! :) Don't care if he just sits there least i can pass over the youngest and go and do something.
Seeing as eldests spots have gotten no better, or worse I decided to take her to the doctors, which meant a very quick morning this morning, as i was up and so was little man, she was not. Rang the doctors and was able to get a app for in 40 minutes time O_O so I rang upstairs got her up and dressed, got little man dressed, put in pram, gave daughter a banana and was out the door and we made it to the drs with about a minute to spare! I don't drive and the drs is a walk through the park near her school but least we managed to get there!
To say the least the dr annoyed me, I have never seen him before and he seemed a bit ignorant. He took a look at her and then started typing on his computer without speaking to me so I carried on talking. He just muttered that whatever it was it looked infected and he would give some anti biotics. .. Okay so what is it?! well he didn't know what it was. He thought it was bites and now just thinking back over the conversation he thought i said they keep coming up.. well they dont! we don't have pets and not really been any fields... ( they come up well after we came home from camping! can't be delayed by 5 days surely)
So again its not cp, not said its viral, not sure if they are bites. Wtf are they then!! She hadn't eaten anything new last week for a reaction, nore had we been anywhere the day before. So very odd. If she still has then after the anti biotics then I'm booking a dermatology appointment!
Had a enjoyable chat with the mother in law today though, i am rather lucky to have such a great mother in law and i wouldn't change her for the world! daughter was kept busy with her aunty and little man was happily playing so it has been a lovely afternoon.. so far! children currently having their dinner and we'll see how we go from there!
But anyway hubby is back today whooohooo! :) Don't care if he just sits there least i can pass over the youngest and go and do something.
Seeing as eldests spots have gotten no better, or worse I decided to take her to the doctors, which meant a very quick morning this morning, as i was up and so was little man, she was not. Rang the doctors and was able to get a app for in 40 minutes time O_O so I rang upstairs got her up and dressed, got little man dressed, put in pram, gave daughter a banana and was out the door and we made it to the drs with about a minute to spare! I don't drive and the drs is a walk through the park near her school but least we managed to get there!
To say the least the dr annoyed me, I have never seen him before and he seemed a bit ignorant. He took a look at her and then started typing on his computer without speaking to me so I carried on talking. He just muttered that whatever it was it looked infected and he would give some anti biotics. .. Okay so what is it?! well he didn't know what it was. He thought it was bites and now just thinking back over the conversation he thought i said they keep coming up.. well they dont! we don't have pets and not really been any fields... ( they come up well after we came home from camping! can't be delayed by 5 days surely)
So again its not cp, not said its viral, not sure if they are bites. Wtf are they then!! She hadn't eaten anything new last week for a reaction, nore had we been anywhere the day before. So very odd. If she still has then after the anti biotics then I'm booking a dermatology appointment!
Had a enjoyable chat with the mother in law today though, i am rather lucky to have such a great mother in law and i wouldn't change her for the world! daughter was kept busy with her aunty and little man was happily playing so it has been a lovely afternoon.. so far! children currently having their dinner and we'll see how we go from there!
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