Sometimes I feel I need to feel sorry for a lot of things, things that are not even in my control and I have no hope of trying to understand and interpret.
Firstly sorry for not being so up to date with the blog recently, just felt I didn't have much to say or just similar things and again didn't want to bore plus my evenings have been a bit hectic due to little man. I'm trying to get him into his own room or rather use to his own bed, and its proving a little hard. just because in the middle of the night i'm getting up several times and I can't and won't let him just cry as he will then disturb my daughter and then that is just going to cause problems.
I feel sorry I'm not the mother I think I should be, I get stressed far to easily ( which everyone can vouch for) but also have a lot to deal with. Not saying anyone else doesn't but feel really stretched sometimes. And we seem to have had alot of things with school, I worry that I am going to be soon as one of "those" parents pestering over little things but to me, they are not little these are things and after all they do come into Duty of care! which has been failed recently. So looking forward to this school meeting coming up. But with some talking with hubby we are going to do more family days out and events. I want them to look back and remember a happy childhood.
Partially I think I should say sorry for not being the friend I could be, I do my best, I do have a young family with extra care needs to deal with. I don't like to go drinking and clubbing was never really my thing. I feel I have lost touched with a lot of people and It upsets me a little. Would it be so hard to come for a coffee at the weekend? I know people have work, my children don't bite ( yet) but sometimes I feel i have moved a different circle when I haven't, I'm still Chelle. Also I have tried to do the contacting but it shouldn't all be one sided especially when there are reunions involved.
And enough for the pity party for today! stay tuned for the better one tomorrow!
