Trying

Everything seems so hard at the moment. I wanted to get this new year off to a good start, find a job, get the house and things sorted and finally get on to things we want to do. Being promised call backs and hearing nothing is a blow. I know we create our own messes in life, but when trying to sort things out, pick ourselves up and make things better why does it all have to be a kick in the teeth?

Not that I want to go out and send the little man to nursery just yet, but  needs must! though trying to find jobs working from home is a laugh,  trying to find something around school is even worse, but my family work, i  have asked about for child minders to see if any pick up from school and seem to come up with nothing.

I have been down the Avon route, and no one in the area is interested, or they do big orders then cancel on you.  I have done so many online surveys recently they are annoying! There are the odd typing at home jobs on line. However! you have to pass obviously  a lot of tests first and I have never done audio typing before now and doing the test, well I am not sure I am right for the job! I think I will have to find a cleaning job somewhere ( haha not like there are many of them around either! ) I would be better off trying to be a programmer!

On top of trying to find a job I have my poor daughter in pain, her eczema is so bad it looks like sun burn! her knee is causing her so much discomfort that it was even hurting this morning!  I am pretty sure I will be told that it is growing pains still.  But I can't wait till April for the Pediatric appointment to put a point across!

And this doesn't take more then an hour a day does it not? it is really infuriating me!  I should be the one at home being able to take care of her, not facing the prospect of finding someone adequate enough to look after her needs!

Wheat free child

Telling the 6 year old that is quite use to cake, bread, toast, crumpets, pasta etc etc that now we have to change her diet to wheat free to try and come to some conclusion or answer for her severe eczema has not been easy. At the same time we have had to stop any large quantaties of potato as I am almost certain she has an allergy, having flared horribly before with large amounts (chips for lunch mash for tea being large) and before Christmas she was feeling sick after a potato lunch and sick with just chips for tea. However once all up she was fine! And I mean fine. Now I know this is not conclusive but gut instinct here no matter if the pediatrician has never heard of it. Magic of the internet has and even the dietician even listened last time we saw her!

It is hard though trying to make her understand that we are trying to do this for her own good. I think there has been some improvement her skin is weak and breaks easy on the main issue points and is still dry but think for now we are getting somewhere.

The price is not cheap for these alternative foods not that I put a price on her health but unless we get her teasted as a celiac we won't get help. Thanks for that. Sometimes I wonder if people think I am making all these reactions up. Like I have nothing better to do.  Well the new year can only bring answers... right?

2014

Well it's here 2014. Doesn't seem like a moment ago that we were bringing in the millennium let alone 14 years later. So much has happened in that time.  I finished school, college and 2 years at university. Welcomed in 2 neices and 2 nephews as well as having 2 children of my own. Got married, had all my job experience so far. Seen my family grow with members and then in laws and also lost family and not in the general terms off loss, more like a severing of ways. Seems rather drastic to say but sometimes it is for the best and not to dwell on it though idlely I do. 

Too many what ifs and unanswered questions. Friends have come and gone and like we all say we know who our friends really are. I just hope it stays that way or actually for old friends to make contact that would be nice. I have tried to build bridges but on deaf ears and too much trying sounds like pleading. 

I hope to change for the better this year, loose weight, gain confidence, get a job (as needs must) I would love to go back to university if I can between a job and home life. Still fighting the eczema and allergy battle but we will get somewhere I hope. Answers, miracle cream something! Things might seem tough, but I know if we can pull together we will be okay.  We have to be.

Sorry for the little reminisce and long time between posts but life took over for a time as it should. Love and light for 2014.