Things just seem to be going awry? nothing seems to really go your way or something just sets you off in a bad mood? I feels like one of those days today or rather one of those months! Today I just can't shake the bad mood feeling, the failure feeling, I want to get myself by the shoulders and give them a good shake but it wouldn't change things.
I would like some good news for a change, something to go in our favour, anything! don't care if its a lottery win or just something good!
I have mentioned previously how i hated form filling and that of a particular government form? well we got knocked back for our renewal which means two parts of our money were stopped. Which technically means we are down by a wage in the house. It's a lot of money that we are currently missing and with Christmas coming up all i can see is decorations and things for the family that I can't pick up and can't even bother to look at because there is no point. All of any extra money we have is being spent on the very tightly reigned food shop. Not that it is bad to reign ourselves in a bit but it was tight enough as it was! Our renewal was knocked back on the basis of the very vague report the gp sent in, late mind you i was hounding them over it and god i wished i hadn't bothered!! they didn't bother to get in touch with one of the main people my daughter sees, her dermatologist. I feel like taking people's heads and hitting it against a wall for all the aggrivation they have caused! So we are appealing the decision but need to get dermatologist to write a letter, she has and she's sent it.. has it arrived here??? nooooooo twice they've sent it out and no sign of the bloody thing! i've checked the address too. At this rate i will have to personally go and pick it up! and might send it on as a recorded delivery so i know it's got there! Royal mail are a total waste of space imo!
They (DLA) are telling us that our 6 year old girl can basically care for herself, so would you trust a child to put on cream to all over her body, hard to reach places etc and rub it in properly, steroid creams which are potent, inhalers, nasel spray, anti histamines, bandages when needed etc? hell i've been told some adults can't even handle their care and so they expect my daughter too and that it is no greater then any other 6 yr old. Erm... pardon? how many other 6 year olds are waking up in the night hysterical over leg/ joint pain, or are tearing at their skin trying to claw it off because it is itchy and not caring if it bleeds. I couldn't cope with that as an adult! It is alot of work and care that goes into her care not that i begrudge doing it but i don't have to do this much effort with the 21 month old! It's heart breaking! she suffers so much and yet she doesn't let on when it comes to things like this, yes if she falls over the world is ending but eczema itchy? not bothering her.
On top of all that her asthma has been plaguing her ! and after two weeks dr still says it is tight, winter is going to be a bug bear i think!
So on top of that the little boy has been ill for the last 5 weeks, firstly it was hand foot and mouth, straight after that he got a chesty cough that hasn't left him for 4 weeks, took him to the drs ( didn't want to be fobbed off before hand) and found out that he has tonsillitis ... thankfully he takes his anti biotics without much fuss! It is a bacterial infection and on top of that he has a viral infection, as he had a rash, was being sick etc. Then we have me who has been having problems for a while and got a phone call today asking me to go and speak to the dr who said that she wouldn't need to see me when i saw her on Saturday unless it was different... oh fab! and i have to wait for the news next Friday, nice way to spend hubbies week off work!!
Speaking of which there is an event on next Friday that he doesn't wish to speak about!! wish i could do more for it! not that he would let me and might try and see it as a normal day ... he wishes! heh.
There I think i might have got it all of my chest for the time being and don't have to keep explaining whats the matter. As well it's a lot of crap at the moment!! It's hard enough with the eczema but with the rest of it? well it's enough to make me want to go and cry. or eat the packet of biscuits down stairs! Either way ! over and out for today!
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